sub est pli nova supreni

i'm afraid a lot. of a lot of things.

my dad works to the point that when he gets a rare day off he doesn't know what to do with himself. i'm seeing myself heading down that road and i don't like it. i'm not even working that much! i mean, yeah i sorta am but there are people out there who have it worse, people i know. so i don't sympathize with myself (is that even right?).

i feel like i don't have enough time for everything. between work and school, i don't like using my free time for homework, haha. c'est une mauvaise idée. i like working because of the people i work with, it's funny. it's really not bad. it sorta feels like being back in high school. hiding in the back of the class, sharing foods and hiding from the principal/boss man. it's all of that minus the drama, for me at least.

what i don't like is the not having spare time. i need to live and breathe and relax and enjoy everything. i don't want to grow hardened like others i know, i don't want to forget the little things. but maybe that's just part of my innocent naivety that makes me so endearing ;)

anyway, i just feel lazy. but productive at the same time? it's odd.



oh, here's more of the tatuajes that i want.



esperanto for "i believe it because it's impossible." i realized that a lot of different meanings can be taken from that which made me love it even more. i just love esperanto! ^__^

then there's the elliott smith memorial on my back.



and of course, the radiohead bear! (on my wrist? or maybe behind my ear!)



...and maybe this.


oh, but just the arrows.